Tired of Waiting

I really hope we can meet in September. I'm tired of all this waiting. Tired of this waiting for his passport game. I am glad that we got decent news last time though. He'll be going in next week if he gets a weekday off to make sure they're still on track with it. I hope things go well and that he gets it soon.

I don't want to be like those girls who keep on waiting and waiting for their partner to meet them but they always come up with some excuse. Read about a girl who was in an online relationship for 5 years (pretty much just emailing, texting and calling, no video chats or anything) and he supposedly had cancer, and kept putting off their plans to meet because he was feeling insecure about having her see him like that. Well, she fell for it for five years. If you haven't met after five years because he keeps putting it off, there's definitely something wrong. That should have been a red flag to her. Plus, if the person is always making excuses not to go on skype or any video chats, that's another red flag. There's only so many excuses they can make before it starts to get suspicious.

Also, the ones who send money to these people are the worst. I don't care how kind-hearted and gullible you are, if someone you've been emailing a few times asks for money, that should be a major red flag. Plus you shouldn't fall that hard for someone you've only met on email and haven't seen on video at least. A lot of times, these people who are catfishing will declare their "love" for you very soon after you first meet them, usually within a week or two. That's what gets those kind people hooked, and they fall even farther after a while of bad, corny emails.

So, that's why I've decided that if me and James still are not at least in the official planning stages of seeing each other by the end of September, then that is not good. I'm hoping that if things go well and he gets his passport we can start planning around the middle of next month, so a month from now. That's if his passport does come on time. For him, he said depending on what they tell him when he goes in next week, he'll start on his moving plans since he has to give his mom a month's notice.

I hate still being so unsure of everything. At least we got some idea now, and we're finally out of the limbo of not knowing anything, but we still don't really know. Hopefully he can know more once he goes in again and that if they are still on track or not.

I'm sure other people who are in LDRs and were waiting to meet for the first time also kept hitting some traffic blocks, but eventually did get to meet after everything was alright. We can't be the only ones. Sigh.