It's So Surreal

After watching these LDR videos all night (and well into the morning, it's 4 am now, oops LOL YOLO, ok I don't say YOLO but anyways), I was thinking that it's so weird to me that I'm in an LDR too. I met someone in a different country who is willing to overcome this distance and fight to be with me. Like...it's happening to me. And here I thought I was going to end up single forever.

I guess for a few seconds I looked at my relationship as if it was happening to someone else. Like, that person is not me. It's like I'm looking at someone else's profile seeing how happy they are with their LDR and how they can't wait to meet their partner. I just had a surreal moment. Almost an out of body experience, if you will.

James bought me two kilt skirts tonight on his way home from work when he spotted them in the window of a store. I just thought how it was sweet that he thought of me when he saw them, and he showed them to me on skype tonight and I really love them, looking forward to when he sends them to me to try on. It was rare that a guy in my previous relationships ever thought of me like "oh I think Alicia would like that". I always did that for them, but now I'm starting to feel like this is real and he thinks of me and I just ugh. Too many emotions for this time of night (day?).

I think him showing me the skirts (I know he's bought me other things too but I haven't seen them yet) just kind of got me and I had a moment although it was a delayed moment since I had it a few hours after he showed me. Plus watching those damn videos that are so addicting even though I've seen a lot of them already. I feel almost like I'm watching this happen to someone else and that it's not happening to me even though it obviously is.

Ok, that was probably a mess and made no sense but it is past 4am and I'm in "derp" mode now (as James would say) so forgive me. And I am going to try and sleep now. James has tomorrow and Wednesday off so that makes me happy, two almost full days of talking to him other than when he is gone out with his dad.

I'm so damn happy it's like an alien feeling. The aliens ...it's always the aliens.