30 Day Challenge Day 4

Bullet your whole day:

• Wake up.
• Go on computer.
• Read a bit.
• Get ready for work.
• Eat lunch.
• Work from 3 - 9.
• Come home. 
• Go on computer.
• Talk to James and celebrate our 6 month anniversary.
• See James on skype (hopefully if Skype works).
• Go to sleep around 1:30 am. 

Yup, I really have exciting days. It's annoying when your friends are too busy to hang out with you, and I haven't seen some of them in a few months. I haven't properly hung out with my best friend since September. But, as they say, some friends you can only see a couple of times a year but still be really close. I guess me and him are becoming one of those. It's kind of annoying because I'm used to hanging out with him more often, and now we've gone this long without seeing each other. I know that James only sees his best friend every so often, so it's not like he hangs out every weekend either.

I guess it's part of getting older, you know. My parents don't "hang out" with their friends, although sometimes their friends come and visit randomly, or we do have planned visits once in a while. Some of us realize that we don't need to be around people all the time. The others still have the mindset that they need to be surrounded by their friends and go to parties every weekend. One of my friends invited me to hang out this weekend, but who knows if that'll happen or if she'll change her mind at the last minute. I'd like to hang out with her and get out of the house for once, plus again it's been since before Christmas that we've hung out last. So I do hope it happens but I'm not holding my breath. 

I'm not really too depressed over it, as in, feeling so lonely that I can't take life anymore. Talking to James every night is a big help. But even so, I survived 10 months without him when I was single, so it's not like I'm fully dependent on him. I just wish I could get out of the house more and enjoy life, rather than sit here all day (when I'm not working). I do know that when James comes, those 7 days will be the most active I've been since probably September, when I was living with my best friend. Even when I was living with my best friend, we barely hung out properly since he was always doing school work, or his roommates would interrupt us every 5 seconds when we tried to talk in his room. But at least I could still see him everyday. 

I guess I'm used to being a loner. Living out here in the boonies is what I'm used to. Most people my age can just easily walk or drive across town to their friend's place. Or they even live with their friend. But I can't. I have to drive 20 mins to town, or any of my friend's places, and that doesn't bother me but it seems to bother people when they come out to visit me. I've had people more than once comment when they come here, "wow, it's so far out" and I'm just like uh no it's not, but I guess I'm used to driving that far into town everyday. My friends live pretty close to town, or right in town so they're used to being close to everything. 

I think that when James comes here, he won't mind how far my place is from town, even though he's used to being able to just walk places whenever he wants. He likes going on drives, and he hates the city and would rather be peaceful. I wonder if when he first comes here, he'll comment on how "far out" from town it is. Even when he moves to Massachusetts, he'll still be in the middle of downtown, and he says that's quiet compared to NY, which is true I suppose. The town is probably one like Truro. He'll be able to walk to a lot of places, since his mom's place is close to them. 

Anyway, that's my bullets for the day.