Back to Normal

So, things are back to normal between us, and I'm so glad. For a while there things were pretty unstable, we were fighting and he was feeling bad about the relationship. I wasn't sure what was going to happen, and it scared me. I was scared that after all of this, it was going to end and I'd have to face the people who would laugh at me and say "told you so" plus we'd wonder "what if" and then if he got his passport we'd feel stupid for breaking up. I would also be broken without him. The thought of losing him was crushing me. I didn't want it to come to that. The thought of never being able to meet was killing me inside.

We managed to talk it out and get over our issues. I mean, we've only been together for 6.5 months and the first year of a relationship is all about getting to know each other, good and bad, and working out the kinks. At least, it's been true for me. And around 6 months is when each other's true selves start really coming out, and it's a matter of if you can handle the good and bad of this person or not. I think so far, James and I can handle each other's bad sides.

He also had a death in his family the other day. His close cousin. The wake is on Monday and the funeral is on Tuesday, so him and his dad will be going to Pennsylvania (where his cousin lived) on Monday and staying the night there until Tuesday. They'll probably head back shortly after the funeral. James said it's a 3 hour drive. I assume they'll probably stay with his aunt (the one who lost her son). But he did say he'll bring his laptop with him so that he can talk to me for a bit, probably at night. So it's not like he'll just go to Pennsylvania and I won't hear from him for a couple of days.

Last night when we went on skype, he was back to his normal self, joking around with me as usual. So I'm glad that things are ok between us again and now we just have to wait until he figures out when he's going to move so that will be one step closer.

Tonight I'm going to Halifax to go to the Mic Mac Mall and then hopefully meet up with my friend later to go to a club for a couple of hours. I'll probably drive home tonight. I'll talk to James on facebook while I'm gone, but won't be able to see him on skype tonight :( and the weather is kind of gloomy right now, which really sucks. I prefer to go out and do things like this when the weather is sunny (and warm). But oh well, I guess it gives me something to do. But, I work tomorrow and it's supposed to be nice, of course, or else I would go tomorrow in the nicer weather instead :/

Anyway, I'm going to start getting ready to leave now.