Wednesday, April 16, 2014

How Do You Cheer Your Boyfriend Up?

I'm asking for help from you guys on this one, because I don't know what to do.

Especially since yesterday, but mostly since he heard about the passport issue, he hasn't been himself. Yesterday we both felt like we were dead and didn't feel passion anymore. He said that he felt that he has no purpose anymore, that he's a failure and he let me down.

I don't know if it's just because of the passport issue, or something deeper. I don't want to break up with him, and I know he doesn't want to break up with me. I think that the passport thing hit both of us hard, so now we're all messed up and emotional because we no longer have a countdown, at least until he gets his passport and we can finally make a new date. We were fine before this. But We were both getting excited to meet each other and then this happened. So now we don't have a date and that's a huge blow to both of us.

And I think that's mostly the problem. He feels that he let me down, that I won't want to be with him or wait much longer for his passport to come, so he's all preparing himself for me to break up with him. I've told him that I won't, but I think he's being too hard on himself. I really, really have to meet him. I mean, I don't want us to have come all this way, just to quit when something goes bad. What if I broke up with him this week, and his passport were to come next week? I'd feel stupid and we would both regret it. Plus it wouldn't be the same.

I'm not considering breaking up with him. I really love him, and I was really looking forward to meeting him on May 7th, but now that this setback happened, we were both really let down. He said seeing me on skype cheered him up a bit last night, but he's still not 100% and today for the brief time I talked to him before he left to go with his dad, he said that he feels worse now. I'm really worried about him and I want things to go back to normal. He said he might feel better once he gets out in the cold air for a while, so I hope that he does. I wrote him a note so he can read it while I'm at work, so he'll hopefully feel better from that too. Sigh.

Well, I have to finish getting ready for work. I'll be talking to him again at break and I hope he's somewhat back to his normal self. I hate seeing him this way :(

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