I'm In Love

Can I just rave for a moment about how awesome he makes me feel?

I know this is typical of people who are just getting seriously into a relationship and are infatuated. But we have been together almost four months now so I think it's safe to say I'm in love.

"But how, you haven't met him in person?" you say, with a confused look on your face. Or a judging look.

No, I have not, not for another 94 days.

And yet, I feel like his spirit is always with me. I'm so lucky that I've found someone so willing to overcome this distance just to be with me. Whenever I talk to him, even if I'm depressed and feel like nothing in the world is right, he just lifts my mood and my heart expands even more, I feel like it's bursting out of my chest with so much love for him.

Am I crazy? Maybe. But I think I deserve to finally feel this way about someone. I've been hurt, rejected and friendzoned time again. I gave enough guys here a chance. Can't say I didn't try. And James feels the same way about girls there. He's said that enough girls have hurt and rejected him, and that girls there barely even notice him. I guess that's one reason why he decided to go ahead and be in a relationship with me despite how hard it would be. I liked him for who he was, and that meant a lot to him since most girls there wouldn't give him the time of day.

Well, the only hard part is missing him. I just want to give him a real hug and kiss, and show my haters that I won't be forever alone as they have said. I want to lay next to him, spend time with him, do fun and crazy things together. It'll be an odd feeling to have someone drive 900kms just to meet me. That's like what someone would do for a pop star or something. I guess most people in LDRs kinda feel the same way?

Anyway, the more I talk to him, each time I fall for him more. Seeing him on skype just makes my normally stoic demeanour melt away and I show emotions for once (lol). He brings out the good in me, makes me feel good and that's the person I've needed for a long time. Someone to stay by my side and believe in me no matter what.

94 days <3