James went to the passport office on Tuesday. He said that they told him another 2 - 3 weeks. Of course. So, it could be mid-June before he's here. But he said in another 2 weeks he'll go back to the office for another update, if he hasn't got it by then. Sigh. I didn't think a small legal case that was closed over a year ago (he didn't do anything illegal, it's just he was accused of something he didn't do) would give us this much trouble with a passport. But, I'll wait.
However, I'm not going to wait all summer. In a worst case scenario, if I haven't met him by the end of August, I'm not sure if things will work out, plus it'll send up a red flag to me. I know he wants to meet me. I just don't want things to keep getting "delayed". It'll make it feel like he doesn't want to meet me after all. I also don't want to keep getting my hopes up of having him visit "soon", only to keep having some excuse as to why he's delayed yet again. You can understand how that would get frustrating.
I can understand the first few times. So, something went wrong with his passport. We'll just wait as we have been doing for the past 7+ months. Now it's only a matter of when he gets his passport, he'll put in his 2 week notice at work, then move, then come and see me. The plan is still the same, it's just a matter of when.
Also, I don't want people to judge us, and tell me that "this is getting suspicious" or "he's not coming, he's just leading you on" etc. I've already had a couple of my friends tell me that this is sounding suspicious. I told them I know what I'm doing. I'm not going into this stupidly. If this is a red flag, I will have to end the relationship. But like I said, I'll give him a few months, and if we haven't met by then, well...yeah. That's not good.
We took this news better this time than we did last time. I guess because we prepared ourselves for it, as in we talked to each other and reassured each other that we weren't going to let this break us up. Last time we got all depressed, and he suddenly doubted himself and told me he didn't want me to wait for him, etc. This time, we're just going on as normal even though we are both sad.
Since, originally, he was supposed to be here yesterday, I keep thinking about what we could be doing if he had been able to make it on time. It does make me a little sad, but I will just look forward to doing those things with him in (hopefully) the near future.
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