The Little Things

Being in an LDR really makes one appreciate the little things. Like today, James called me beautiful and I had a stupid grin on my face. And earlier today, he said that he's going to marry me, and I'm going to be his wife, of course that almost made me cry. I know it's too soon to talk about that since we haven't met yet, but I know we both agree that we are soulmates. And of course, I wouldn't accept a true proposal online. He'd have to propose to me in person, and he's told me that he wants to do it in New York. I just think that proposing online is not romantic or true. That's why I don't get those women who fall for scammers when they propose online.

I know a lot of local relationships take each other for granted, including the time they spend together. Like, take my former best friend for example. He gets to be with his girlfriend everyday. He literally has time for no one else. Most girls who are in local relationships, especially those in relationships for a long time, start to just kind of brush it off when their guy gives them compliments or does sweet things for them. It's like "oh he gave me flowers again, it's sweet but why doesn't he do something different for once?" where with me, no guy has ever given me flowers. And I've had decently long relationships. My longest being 1.5 years, the shortest being 1 month. Most of them lasted around 8 months to 1 year on average.

James says he'll get me flowers, and if he does he'll be the first. And of course I'll probably cry. I often joked to my family "the guy who gets me flowers will be the one" and now I think that'll come true :P No matter how many flowers he gets me, I'll love it because it's from him, and from the heart, because someone finally listened to what I really want. I've also never had a guy randomly surprise me with cute things, like while going shopping "oh I think Alicia will like that". I've done that for them, but they never did it for me, at least not often. I don't expect much, just cute surprises here and there. Also, the worst was, I was always the one initiating the plans. It was never them offering to go out, always me. James says he's spontaneously romantic and I like that.

He hasn't sent me anything in the mail yet, but he will once he moves. Then again, hopefully by the time he moves, he has his passport so he can just come and see me anyway. But after that, we'll start sending each other things. He told me that once he gets a car, he'll just say "I'm coming to see you" and then we'll plan a couple weeks ahead. So, that'll be nice.

I really hope that we get word on his passport soon. He is going back to the passport place this coming Tuesday so we'll hopefully know more by then. And then, Wednesday is our 7 month anniversary, which will be bittersweet for both of us because on the one hand, it's amazing we've survived 7 months long distance. On the other hand, it's sad because he should have been here if his passport had come on time :( And, it sucks even worse, because he works night and since he started at a new department at work, he can't call out for the first 2 weeks :( So I won't even get to see him on cam for our anniversary and I'll be alone that night to mope about him not being here since I don't work on Wednesday :( He was upset about it when he told me, and he said that he could try to get someone in his new department to switch with him. But I don't know if that'll happen. But, if we get some good news on Tuesday from the passport place, it shouldn't be so much of a downer to spend our anniversary alone. I'll just be thinking about the future trip.

Anyway, I'm about to pass out now so I'm heading off to bed, but this was just a little blurb about how being in an LDR makes a person appreciate the little things someone does for them/says to them.