Late Night Musings

Even though me and James were both still bummed about his passport, we're still together and don't have any plans of breaking up. We're just ready to see each other now, and so long as the passport people are right and it comes next week or the week after, I will be able to see him in June :D

James said he'll probably go back to the passport office next week to get another update. In the meantime all we can do is cross our fingers and hope for some good news or that it comes soon. But like I said, the plan is still the same: once he has his passport in hand, he'll put in his 2 week notice at work, then move, and then come and see me. We don't have a date yet, but it's just a matter of when he'll get his passport.

I'm sure other LDR relationships have had this problem. When you're looking forward to a date and then it doesn't happen because of life situations. I know that when my sister dated a guy she met in college, after she came back here they were LDR and at first things were fine, but after a while it got so that he just kinda gave up on making dates with her and would always have some excuse as to why he couldn't make it. I'm just worried about the same thing happening with me and James: if he keeps thinking of excuses not to come.

I told him that if it comes down to it, I'll go there to meet him if I have to. He said he really wants to come here first and meet my parents so they can trust that I'll be in good hands once I do go down there. I'm sure me going there would be a last resort, but he'd do it. I might have to drag my mom along though lol. And pay for her ticket and passport too :/

I mean, it does make sense that he wants to meet my parents and family to assure them that he's real and not some stalker out to hurt me or some scammer just brainwashing me. I'm going to start getting suspicious if his passport doesn't get here soon, or if he goes back there next week and they tell him it'll be another 2 - 3 weeks. That'll send a red flag to me.

I'm not stupid. If this were a bad case scenario, and he were a scammer, just because he says he wants to meet me, doesn't mean he'll actually do it, that's if he had intentions of hurting me. I'm aware that he could be lying to me about everything. And it would really hurt my feelings (and ego) if he was. But I highly doubt he's lying or brainwashing me. I think his intentions are true and nothing about him has sent red flags so far.

I just can't wait to start posting photos of us together, because I know that some people probably still doubt us or think we're crazy. Or they probably think I'm being scammed since you know, every person on the internet that isn't already your friend in person, is a scammer according to some people. But once James is here and I prove them all wrong, it'll be amazing. I've already had some people tell me that it's starting to sound suspicious. So, yeah, it'll be nice once James is really here, then they'll feel like idiots for doubting me.

I do know that once I can post about him getting his passport, it'll be the best post of my life. I can't wait for that day, and I can't wait until he shows it to me on cam. But like I said, until then all we can do is just go about our normal lives and wait eagerly for the day that we can announce a new meeting date.

So I think that's all for now, I'm probably going to sleep soon.