So when James comes here I'll be the first girl he's ever kissed or held hands with, or even cuddled with. He's 26 years old, yet he's never had a girlfriend. To be honest, I was kind of shocked when he first told me this, but as I got to know him and his stories I began to understand why. Not saying there's anything bad on his part that would make me not want to date him. Just the situations in his life has made me understand him more.
He's definitely not a bad guy at all, and for a while I did have a hard time believing that he's never had a girlfriend before me. He's definitely had crushes, and had girls who he thought liked him, only they ended up hurting him in the end. So it's not like he hasn't tried. It's not his fault that the girls in New York are shallow, stupid and go around hurting guys for the sake of it. Plus, even if he got to know one, not many girls there would share his interests. I understand that problem, as that happened to me. I had a couple of guys who had some things in common, but they truly didn't understand my real interests.
And, he says, according to the girls there, he's not "good looking" in their standards. To me, I think he's cute, so I am surprised that no other girls there have thought he was cute. He's definitely not bad looking. But he told me that the girls there would only date guys who are tall, buff, and assholes, or guys with "swag".
James has told me stories of girls who've led him on then hurt him. One example is that he went to this diner in his town, and this waitress started talking to him. Eventually they got to talking for an hour each time he was there. He started thinking that maybe she liked him. So on the day he finally decided he was going to ask her to hang out, he goes to the diner and she tells him that she doesn't want to talk to him anymore and he makes her uncomfortable. So since then he hasn't been back to that diner. There are a few other stories he's told me but I don't want to write too much personal things on here. Another story being the night of his high school prom that still haunts him to this day.
I'm just shocked at how stupid the girls are there, and how they didn't see a good guy when they talked to him. They didn't even take the chance to get to know him like I did. He said it means a lot to him that I got to know him and wanted to know him, and that I fell for him for who he is. In a way I'm glad though, I mean, if a girl had gotten attached to him there, he might not have made an account on DA or met me. And I know that's why I was single for so long...I was waiting for him.
Now I am very attached to him. I know that when he comes, we'll be attached at the hip. I probably won't be able to stop touching him or holding hands with him, because it'll be so surreal that he is actually here. He tells me he's nervous because again, he's never kissed a girl or held hands before. I'm happy to be his first kiss, and his first (and hopefully last) girlfriend <3 I've never been anyone's first before. And it's been close to 6 months since I've kissed or held hands with anyone as well. I mean, going from being active "that way" to nothing is difficult, at least he's used to it. I just try not to think about it too much, but I do really miss holding hands, cuddling, kissing, etc and I can't wait to do it with him.
He told me that before he met me, he was leaning towards looking for girls in another country, and probably thinking he would be in an LDR if any girl from a different country showed interest in him. And he was thinking he'd likely meet a girl in Canada. Well, it looks like that happened for him. On my part, I wasn't looking for an LDR, or even a relationship. I didn't expect to be so attached to someone from a different country. He wasn't looking either but he'd thought about dating someone from a different country. He even told me that he thought that when I saw a photo of him, it would be over and I would stop talking to him. But I didn't, and I'm glad I didn't <3
He's the best person I know, and I wouldn't change a thing about the past 5.5 months of being with him. Being with him hasn't prevented me from meeting anyone here, since I didn't do anything anyway and I didn't want to look online again for local guys as is where I met most of my ex's. If it wasn't for James, I'd still be single and lonely. The only thing I'd change is, of course, if we could live closer and/or have seen each other by now. And our patience is paying off because now, it's only 1.5 months until we meet and he's successfully applied for his passport, meaning they took his photo and the application so now it's the waiting game. He said it should be here in a few weeks since he paid for the expedited one.
I really can't wait to meet him, and working does help the days go by even faster. But at the same time, the closer it gets, the longer it feels like. I'll prove anyone who doubted us wrong, and I know a lot of people probably still doubt us and are surprised that we are still in a relationship. I bet most people who found out about us were like "well they won't last a couple of months before she finds out he's a fake" well here we are, 5.5 months later and no sign of slowing down and he's obviously not a fake.
Our first meeting will be the best day of my life, or at least come as a tie for when I've seen Simple Plan in concert :P
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