The Rest of My Life

So I got James looking at engagement rings last night XD he's already told me he knows where he's going to propose and it's somewhere in New York...so I have no idea when or if it will happen but I won't complain about being proposed to in New York lol. I can tell he's probably thought about it for a long time, even before he met me, when he was still single. But then he decided that he was just going to be alone forever, since no girls were showing interest in him until I came along. He said I'm the only girl who wanted to be with him.

I know it's too soon to say this since we're only almost 6 months in and we haven't met in person yet but I can see myself spending the rest of my life with him. There's no one here I'm interested in, and there's definitely no temptations here. There won't be in the future either. I'd rather be with James than be with someone closer who ends up turning into a douche at the end. So far, James has been more sincere than any of my boyfriends here so that's why I trust him more than I trusted them. He also makes me laugh and I just love his smile and his cute face, and can't wait to finally hold him in person. His smile lights up the room and his laugh makes me happy.

Sure, everyone says that the first year of the relationship. We're almost 6 months in and we have had fights already but 98% of the time we get along super well. The fights were more like arguments or disagreements, there was only a couple where I actually hurt him and I apologized and he forgave me so we got over it fairly quickly. There was only one where he hurt me, but he apologized for being an asshole which was nice, because no other guys apologized during fights. Even being in an LDR we can deal with fights and hurting each other maturely and quickly rather than just pouting for hours until one or the other finally gives in.

I think because we're both introverts, that we're able to deal with these situations. We understand each other's personality and know that we don't mean to hurt the other, just sometimes we have a bad day and lash out or things from our past come up to haunt us so that's what causes me to be suspicious. But I'm never truly suspicious, it's just me thinking that because of what's happened in my past. I trust that he's not cheating on me, even online. He trusts me too, even despite things that have happened to him with other girls turning on him.

I can't believe our 6 month anniversary is in 13 days, and after that it'll be 29 days until we meet. I just want him here now, I want to kiss him, hug him, spend time with him, do crazy and romantic things together, etc. I don't know how military wives can do it - spending a year or more without their husbands. Even some LDRs wait a year or more before meeting. One of my college friends has been in an LDR for 4 years and hasn't met him in person yet, since he's overseas. I'm deprived from just waiting seven months, and I haven't even met mine in person yet. At least after this we won't ever have to wait 7 months in between visits again.

Anyway, I think that's all I wanted to say for now. Kind of a pointless blog, but meh. 41 days to go <3